Not About The Label

“What are we really?”
Few months after being together all the time
After being around each other
After those fun dates
Those late night phone calls
Those random trips
You popped him this question
“What are we really?”
You are tired of not being sure where things will go
You are tired of investing too much in someone unsure
You are tired of settling for something temporary again
He answered carefully trying his best not to hurt you
“I am not ready to commit yet”
Your heart ached so much hearing his answer
It’s as if you wasted so much time on him
“I don’t want to risk everything we have. What if we won’t end up together?”
And it hurt more
It feels like someone stabbed your heart countless times
It’s as if your heart shattered on the floor
You parted ways because you cannot accept his answer and that’s okay
It’s okay to leave someone who cannot commit to you
It’s okay to leave someone who cannot give you the love you deserve
Months passed by you were scrolling through your facebook feed
You saw his relationship status he committed to other girl
“That should be me”
“Am I not worth it?”
“Am I not pretty enough?”
“Were my efforts not enough?”
“Am I not worth the risk?”
“Am I not enough?”
Those are the thoughts that came into your mind
You see, nothing worth it comes easy
And you are worth it
Maybe he wasn’t ready for the struggle when you were together
Maybe that time, he wants everything to be easy
And both of you will just go with the flow
He wasn’t brave enough to take a risk
He wasn’t sure if he can handle your strong personality
He wasn’t sure if he can give back the love you are giving him
Whatever his reason was, don’t ever blame yourself
Everyone is worth committing to he just doesn’t want to commit to you
I know reality hurts but that’s the truth
It’s okay if you are still hurting but remember it is not your fault
People think that commitment is all about the label but in reality it is not
Commitment is about knowing that two people got each other til the end;
That you are exclusive to each other;
That you are willing to do everything for each other;
That you will not allow anyone to break your relationship
Commitment is assurance
Commitment is important
Don’t ever blame yourself if a person cannot commit to you
Don’t think that you are not enough
You are always enough
You are even more than enough
It’s just each individual has their own measurement of what is enough and what is not
Someday, you will meet someone who won’t make you doubt yourself even an inch if you are enough or not
You will meet someone who will value your worth
Someone who will conquer the struggles of love with you
Someone who will take those struggles as challenges that will make your relationship stronger and better
But for now, be your own happiness
Discover new things about yourself
Live your life
Collect stories and experiences so when the right one comes you will gladly tell him what lead you to him
And together you will journey through the path of love

To My Future Special Someone

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This may sound more of a warning instead of a reminder
I am telling you that I’m not easy to love
There are nights I cry myself to sleep
There are nights I stare blankly at the ceiling
There are nights I let my thoughts consume me
There are nights I drown in my feelings
Despite of those things
I promise you my mornings
I promise to be your sunshine
I promise you wonderful daylight hours
I’ll smother you with morning kisses without being hesitant because of morning breaths
That’s how comfortable I will be with you
I will cook your favorite breakfast with love
I will cuddle with you everyday
If you come home exhausted I will be by your side listening to you talk about how your day went
I just hope you won’t get tired of me
I hope you’ll understand my struggles
I just want assurance that you will be by my side no matter what
I don’t want something temporary
I don’t want something easy
I will accept you for who you are
I will be your second supporter next to God
If you fear commitment I will help you understand why you shouldn’t
I will make sure that choosing us will be the best decision you will make
I won’t pressure you
I won’t expect from you
I want us to go with the flow; to seize every moment we have together
I will try my best to give the love you deserve
Because even if I don’t know you yet, I know you are worth it
I know you are worth the wait
I know you are my answered prayer
I know the journey will not be easy
I know the road will be rough
But we both know that nothing worth it comes easy
I am ready for the ride
I can’t wait to meet you
I am ready for you

 

With so much love,
Your future special someone